unfriendly bitch

So, that's what I feel like right now. Mostly because I'm a tiny bit ticked that I went to dinner with some friends, both pairs of whom recently became couples. I got my food, sat down started eating. Noticed about halfway through eating that I was still sitting alone. Finished eating while still alone. Left dinner, still alone.
And now, I am off to spend a fantastic evening in the library, probably underground. That's right, alone.
I will continue to wallow in my self pity until I don't feel like it anymore, and there is nothing you can do about that. (NB: BLATANT LIE! You can come keep me company, or better yet, find me a date. Or date me. Whatever.)

Birthday

So, two main points.
1. It's my birthday. What can I do now, at 19, that I couldn't do before? Exactly nothing. But it's cool, not every birthday can be super-special, by definition.
2. I'm going to die this week (a condition made much worse by posting here, but whatever). I have tons of reading to do, a presentation in class tomorrow, a final on Wednesday, a 5 page lit paper and a 10 page research paper (not started) due Friday. This is trouble.
So much trouble.

Thanks are being given.

Thank you, to whatever power or cosmic order or quantum mechanical determinism, did the following things.
1. Put this break right when it is. I think I might have exploded if I were still at school right now. Too many things, all at the same time, and too much stuff to handle.
2. Made me be born in Chicago! God, I love this city, and in a few minutes, I will be out in it, exploring and enjoying instead of dreaming about it.
3. (This one is named Chris) Made me join the band. I keep dreaming about the band. JT and his Siouxa, and Chris in that pom-pon hat... all on a bus. Yay, band.

So, here I am on a Sunday afternoon. Life is good, despite the following thngs.
1. There is so much work to do. As always, there is so much work to do.
2. Mom is flipping out because my family isn't a priority, despite the fact that I spent an hour and a half on the phone with my parents last night. Clearly, that doesn't count for anything.
3. I am sleepy, and therefore 1 looks really unlikely to change.

But, as I said, life is pretty good. Had a waffle this morning for breakfast, went to Casino night last night. Had fun "salsa dancing" with Dan. Finally got a washer despite the fact that it is Sunday, so I will have real, clean clothes to wear tomorrow. Hurray.
I've been wondering about Thanksgiving break. I think it might be wierd to go back home. It is going to be a complete and total change from living here. This is home now, really, and there is a very comfortable routine here. It is also going to be crazy busy with all the commitments I have made, the things I want to do, and then the people I want/need to see. And then there is my family. I know that at least I will be spending Thursay and probably much of Saturday with them, so they are built into the schedule. I'm sure Mom will want to spend more time with me than that, though. It will be negotiated. I really do want to see eveyone again-- that should be very nice. I can't wait to see Ian and Eric and Andy... Hurray!
I really need to get to work, if anything I want to get done today is going to get done today. Sigh.